Entry Four

Tuesday

6/1/04

About 6:30 PM

Dear Serena,

Right now I have egg yolk on my face. There is nasty acne on my face I feel disgusted. I feel that when James sees me he's grossed out. Especially by my fatness!

Actually I've been losing weight. Over the summer I'm going to surprise everyone. I'm going to lose a lot of weight, get contacts, and have clear skin. If I don't get clear skin, I'll be able to wear coverup. I'll even get the confidence to flirt. Maybe with James. I want to at least be his friend. I really like him. I hope he likes me back. I used to talk to him during [high school school play's name]. When he first told me that he can sniff pixie sticks up his nose. I dared him to do it. He stuck it up his nose, pulled it out and said he did it. I said yea right you liar. Then when he was a security guard (dressed up like one) he said I wish I can carry a real gun. I said so bring it and he goes oh yeah so I can get arrested, I said yea.

He's so cute with his shy smile. I love it.

Love,

(my name)